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Other than that, I am pretty damn bored, but too lazy to do anything, really. The night is still young. I also need to watch the OC tonight and tape it for April, who I seriously miss so much.
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[14 Mar 2005|10:23pm] |
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Today sucked. But I won't go into detail.
Hopefully tomorrow will prove to be better.
My brother turned 20 today. Weird.
I'm getting Matty something tomorrow and I know he's gonna be really happy.
I have to work tomorrow at 930 so I'm going to head to bed now.
Happy 9 Months, Sweetheart. I love you. ♥
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[10 Mar 2005|02:55pm] |
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I've been so bored lately, I keep updating livejournal.
I guess it's because I'm home so much now. I don't know what to do with myself.
I don't feel very well today, and I found out Boathouse is screwing me over with money.
So naturally, I'm pissed. and I'm going to get it sorted out asap. I really hate Bryan. For numerous amounts of reasons.
I would quit right this second, but I need a full-time job for the summer, and I need to keep working until then , so I don't have much of a choice but to stick it out...because I cant work somewhere part time for 3 months or so and then quit.
Dinner tonight with the whole family + Matty ♥ I'm excited. We're going to the MANDARIN!
April is gone now :( She's probably in the air as I type this..on her way to Dominican..I'm going to miss her so much and overflow her inbox with emails from me. hahaha.
Not much else to say.
I ate Spongebob pasta stuff today..mmm.
Oh, and Kate is giving me a huge Spongebob cut-out she got from work! I'm so excited. It's definitely going to go on my wall.
My eye looks sooooooooooooooooo much better today. ahhaha ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
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[09 Mar 2005|12:45pm] |
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I'm at school right now, and I have to take the bus home, but it doesn't come until quarter after one or sometime around then...and it's $2.25 just to get from the school to my house, I could pay the same and go to Toronto, thats really stupid. I hate public transportation, but I have no other choice...I don't feel like doing the walk home today. But I should've figured it would happen, everything is going wrong today.
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[08 Mar 2005|10:54pm] |
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it's really cool when someone is mean and unfriendly to you for no reason, no explanation, and makes you feel really, really shitty.
i love when good days turn to horrible nights.
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[07 Mar 2005|01:01pm] |
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I finally get to see my Matty today.
Rainy days are fun, and I had a lot of fun and a lot of laughs today.:) ( ♥ )
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[06 Mar 2005|11:17am] |
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What a lonely weekend.
Except for Jill. ( ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ )
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[05 Mar 2005|11:35pm] |
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Well...this morning was the funeral. It was a beautiful service.
I think the hardest part for me in these last two days (and I'm not sure why) was meeting Chris's real dad and his stepmom. I had never met them before, and his dad is an amazing guy. He and his wife approached me and he thanked me for being part of Chris's life, and all of the family members told me they had heard so much about me and had heard so many stories. And it made me think about all the time we spent together, and all the memories we made. When his dad spoke at the funeral this morning, I lost it completely. It was heartbreaking.
It was really, really tough, but I just have to think...he's free now.
Something so difficult for me today was putting my rose on his casket and having to walk away and knowing that it was final. He is gone for real. Today it really clicked. The reception cheered me up though, as did my day with Jill.
We drove around singing the whole Mamma Mia Soundtrack at the top of our lungs, got bubble tea, were lazy, then rented some movies and just relaxed at her house. Being the stupid person I am, I suggested we watch the Notebook..yeah, bad call on my part. I was so sad on the way home. But now here I am, and I'm feeling really tired. I haven't been able to sleep well lately.
I hope I am able to get back to my normal self soon. it's been one hell of an emotional ride, and thank you to everyone who put up with it.
At dinner my mom and I talked about so many memories we have of Chris, and talked about how truly greatful we are that we were able to know him. We set him off on his journey on a beautiful sunny day, which couldn't have been more perfect, because it truly reflected the person he was.
I'll miss you always Chris, rest in peace. ♥
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[03 Mar 2005|11:35pm] |
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i feel so fucking sick.
i cant deal with life right now.
everyone go away.
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[01 Mar 2005|07:57pm] |
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I have the best friends in the world.
April stopped by and gave me COOKIES she made me, and they are so delicious. And a wicked card too..It's so funny.
Oh man, April you are the best in the entire world and I love you so much. ♥
Amanda is going to stop by tomorrow if I'm not at school and drop some things off and see me cause we miss eachother. I love you Kramer ♥
Matt, you know exactly what to say to me and you have made me feel so much better through this. I love you more than anything and I couldn't ask for a more amazing boyfriend. ♥ I love you so much - IM SORRY FOR THE TYPO I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVERRRR
And Kate and Jill..you know I love you guys and appreciate you so much. You're always there when I need you most.
Everybody has been so supportive and I just want to say thank you all.
PS Mike and I are playing Wheel of Fortune and I am so much better
This game rocks.
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[27 Feb 2005|03:25pm] |
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Chris, you have been the most amazing, strongest and most inspirational person I have ever met in my life.
Through your five year struggle you never once asked "why me?" and you never once complained.
I am so grateful for the two years of our friendship, and I will never forget all of the fun times we had.
You will always be in my heart, and you will be missed so, so greatly.
This really feels all too surreal.
My head is spinning and I don't know how to react.
His struggle is over, now he can be in peace, but I feel like SCREAMING.
He always got through it before, and I talked to him on the phone the other day and he sounded sooooo good.
I really thought that he might beat it once and for all.
it's just not fucking fair. of all people WHY DID HE DESERVE THIS
i feel fucking sick and i havent been able to say one word yet.
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[25 Feb 2005|12:57am] |
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We are in love.
Coffee and I, that is.
It helps me get things done.
It makes me make no sense.
I would be lost without it.
ps. Matt gave me this mug. Cute, eh?
pps. I'm still doing homework. Shit.
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[24 Feb 2005|03:13pm] |
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Oh man, things are absolutely wonderful right now!
I've been having some little changes here and there in my life, and it just makes things new and exciting!
Today I didn't have school (wooo!) and I came home and my new computer was all hooked up in my room (which I am on right now, efff yaa) so I've been spending the afternoon installing and playing with it, its soo much fun. AND OMG SHAWN KICKED A HOLE INT HE WALL TODAY..AHHAHAH OMG I HAVE NEVER LAUGHED SO HARD. My dad is going to kill him! Cause he did it out of anger! hahah oh man, hilarious. Anyways, here are some ( random pics )
food + movie with matty this weekend, cant wait. also a lot of working. i love matt. ♥ also we might stop by at jilly's 19th birthday thing:) i love you jiggims
oH AND IM GOING TO PENSYLVANNIA TO THE HUGE SHOPPING PLACE WITH KRAMER ON MARCH BREAK ICANT WAAAAAAAAAAIT hehhehe
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[20 Feb 2005|06:33pm] |
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Holy crap I can't stop procrastinating.
I have soooo much homework but I have no initiative!!
I had an amazing weekend with an amazing boy. ♥
I already can't wait for next weekend.
PLEASE BE A SNOW DAY TOMORROW! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!
OOH UPDATE UPDATE!!:
Fruit by the foot count of today: IIII
and possibly more to come
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[19 Feb 2005|05:18pm] |
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Worked a 7 hour shift. Laughed a whole lot. Got tired, came home. Coffee.
Am now waiting for my cute boyfriend to come over. He's LATE as usual.
Dad was going to buy me a brand new computer but then my brother bought his own brand new comp today, so I get Shawn's old one which is basically new, which makes me very happy. It's quite good enough for me.
I HATE this computer.
Me and Matt = drinking tonight and chillin n shiiiiiiit.
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[17 Feb 2005|09:18pm] |
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Honestly, it feels like everytime I write a livejournal entry about how much things suck, things immediately begin to turn around. ♥
I just watched the OC and it was delicious, so is Matt who I just got off the phone with.
Tomorrow is Friday. And I don't want to go to school. I am sick of it already.
I work tomorrow 5-9:30. It's going to be so boring. Then work Saturday from 9-3. Then Matt is all mine.
I'm going to go to bed in like 5 minutes and I'm going to wake up at 6 to go to the gym. I know..many of you are doubting me, and I don't blame you..but I am going to try my hardest!!
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[17 Feb 2005|02:04pm] |
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So.....yesterday sucked huge, today pretty much sucked and i'm sure tomorrow will suck too.
Kate, I am coming to Ottawa asap.
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